《她的故事》

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她的故事（小说连载 二十一）
据说夕阳西下里求婚的成功率更高，因为在黄昏女人的意志格外脆弱。我没有戴手表，不知道自己在池塘边站了多久。peter的声音一点也没惊着我。在意识的一个隐秘的角落，也许我一直等着他来找我。
小池塘里的荷花即使还开着，学生时代的那个梁煦，我也不去了。此刻，淡金色的阳光照着一塘秋水，也照着我的华年。二十二岁，一辈子就一次。嘉伟说我神经大条。他太不懂女孩子了。把自己的黄金时代轻易地交在初出茅庐的嘉伟手上，是不是有点委屈自己呢？
我不知道。
peter说 ldquo;真美啊 rdquo;是指风景还是指人？
我没有转过身。我等着答案。
北京的冬天干而冷。小时候最怕冬天。西北风里，只有缩在笨重的棉猴里才感觉到温暖。peter的手，大而温暖，这我知道；我不知道他的胸膛也宽阔厚实，让我可以重温童年缩在棉猴里的感觉。我很放心地向后一靠，他原本虚虚地圈起来的臂膀加了点力度。实实在在的，我在他的怀抱里了。
那天临走，钱老很热情地说： ldquo;下次来过周末吧。我带你们去骑马！ rdquo;这个人倒是真能替朋友预先安排。
进到城里，天已经差不多黑了。钱老的司机将我们送到peter公寓的门口，就被peter在手里塞了钱打发走了。
起风了。我的长发与薄纱长围巾被吹起来。轻轻地，我有点发抖。
ldquo;要不要上去喝杯咖啡？ rdquo;peter轻声问。
我心里犹豫着，但还是点点头。
客厅很大，零星几件浅色家具，清清爽爽的。一个将指甲修剪得整整齐齐的单身男子的公寓就应当是这样的。唯一的装饰是墙上几张照片：jimmy的，emma的，也有peter 与jessica的影。两人头上戴着潜水镜，背景是碧海蓝天。当然还有peter办公桌上的那张全家福。照片上所有的人都笑眯眯地看着我。在这么多双眼睛的注视下，我很局促地坐在沙发上。
peter随手打开电视，将遥控器递给我说： ldquo;愿意看什么，你自己选。 rdquo;
他的语气和眼神触动了我意识里另一个隐秘角落里的心思：我选了，不好看怎么办？
我一按调台键，竟然是cctv的新闻联播，突然间我意识到爸爸妈妈应该在等我吃晚饭。我有点慌，对着peter的背影问： ldquo;peter, 我可以借你的电话吗？ rdquo;
peter人已经在厨房门口，听我这一问，迅速转过身来，看我一眼，一指小角桌上的红色电话，一笑说： ldquo;打给爸爸妈妈？电话在那里，打吧。 rdquo;说完扭头进了厨房。
电话是妈妈接的。她果然在着急： ldquo;呼了你那么多次，怎么连个电话也不？你爸和我都开始着急了！ rdquo;
ldquo;跟老出去见客户，呼机关了。哥来了吗？ rdquo;在家里哥哥是我永远的盟友，此刻我搬出他来打岔。
ldquo;你哥今天跟几个朋友玩儿去了。你们兄妹俩一个脾气，有事儿家晚连个招呼也不打！你哥是男孩子还有情可原，你一个姑娘家，也这么着！我今天做了你们最爱吃的红烧排骨，结果一个都不来 rdquo;我妈听起来是真不高兴了。
ldquo;好了好了，老妈！我现在就坐车家。今天我也很辛苦，正好吃你烧的排骨补补。 rdquo;放了电话，我心里还在咚咚地跳。
peter站在厨房门口，远远地看着我说： ldquo;我陪你下去。 rdquo; !--[if gte mso 9] xml w:worddot w:view normal w:view w:zoom w:zoom w:trackmoves/ w:traatting/ w:donotshowrevisions/ w:donotprintrevisions/ w:donotshowents/ w:donotshowiionsaions/ w:donotshowpropertyges/ w:punctuati/ w:validateagainstschemas/ w:saveifxmlinvalid false w:saveifxmlinvalid w:ignoremixedtent false w:ignoremixedtent w:alwaysshowplaceholdertext false w:alwaysshowplaceholdertext w:donotpromoteqf/ w:lidthemeother en-us w:lidthemeother w:lidthemeasian zh- w:lidthemeasian w:lidthemeplexscript x-none w:lidthemeplexscript w:patibility w:breakedtables/ togridincell/ textwithpunct/ w:useasianbreakrules/ w:dontgrowautofit/ w:splitpgbreakandparamark/ w:enableopentypekerning/ w:dontflipmirroris/ w:overridetablestylehps/ w:usefelayout/ w:patibility m:mathpr m:mathfont m:val=& cambria math& / m:brkbin m:val=& before& / m:brkbinsub m:val=& 45;-& / m:smallfrac m:val=& off& / m:dispdef/ m:lmargin m:val=& & / m:rmargin m:val=& & / m:defjc m:val=& 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